A Mother’s Requiem 

Give us this day our daily bread 
And forgive us our trespasses 
As we forgive those who trespass against us

But have you really forgiven me for trespassing against you 

At that time in my life I felt alone

Scared that no one would be there

So I ended your chance

To enhance mine 

Now I regret

My only opportunity

To give you more than I had

To teach you more than I learned 

I sit and think about what could have been

Mother to child

Rocking to sleep on my chest

A kiss of comfort from the beat of my heart 

Thoughts have never left my soul

I still cry at the image

Suicidal thoughts ravage my mind

A lifetime away from a new beginning

 
Our father who art in heaven

Heal my soul because I am torn

No one can truly understand this pain

A pain that continues to leave its mark on the inside 

Shame

Fear

Guilt

Each one fueling my demise 

Depression

Anxiety

Wanting to feel that life inside me again

Each one fueling my stuttering downfall 

Flash back of memories and nightmares

Going to sleep while my child exits my body

Persistent thoughts of the procedure

All on what would have been your day 

I ask for your forgiveness

For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory

Forever and ever

AMEN 

Photo Taken by Steven Lewis, Nightday Photography
Poem Written by Steven Lewis, The Poet Night Day
Model–Imani Hafiz